Well, the day that we joked about for quite a few years happened last Saturday morning! Our little, furry bundle of happiness passed away! Our "golden" child, as we called her and the reason for the jokes because she was quite expensive to care for, took her last breath on this earth! Boy, we sure loved every ounce of that little thing! It was sudden, yet something we knew was coming all at the same time! Katee, was 16 years old and her little body just had enough! The past month has been a battle and we tried our hardest to keep her happy, content, and comfortable! However, knowing she's in a better place, still doesn't take away the deep void you feel, but it does give some relief knowing she no longer has to deal with the pain. Never, ever would I have imagined it would feel this way though! She was my first baby and my constant, so how I never thought it would hurt this bad is beyond me....WOW! It's been a little rough this week getting used to our new normal!
Thinking back on it, it's amazing how God works! He truly answered the prayer that I had been praying for several weeks and that was, "Please God, just take her when it is time and let it be peaceful, I don't think I can make the decision for Natalie to do it." Oh man, I pleaded and prayed so hard and it happened just that way....my sweet little girl left this earth right in my arms, surrounded by love! How awesome is that! We sure did love her and did everything we could for her in her life....3 surgeries, daily medicine, Rx food, grooming, but most of all LOVE and lots of it!
I knew Friday night there was no coming back from this. The medicine wasn't working and she was going down hill quick and I knew come Monday, it was decision time. Oh man! I just held her, talked, kissed, and did my best to make sure she knew how much I loved her. That night in bed, I felt her trying to move and she couldn't, so I would pick her up, love her for a minute and then lay her back down. She was in diapers already, but the last time she tried to move was different....she was saturated when I picked her up that time! So, I got Brenton up and told him I needed his help, but at 5:20 she took her last breath! I felt it! I felt her heartbeat stop and I saw the life just drain from her! She knew I was holding her and for her to go like that was all I ever wanted, so my heart is at peace!
I wasn't sure what to do, but I knew everyone needed to say goodbye and Colin laid w/ me on the floor with her. He hugged, kissed, and petted her! Ethan, didn't believe it, but once he realized it was true he came in and said his goodbye's. Brenton and I did the same before we wrapped her in a blanket and placed her in the box! We knew we wanted her cremated, but weren't sure the process and our vet was out of town. UGH! However, I wasn't about to let her just stay in a box, in our cold garage for the next couple of days...no way! My momma heart doesn't work that way, so we were so glad that Geib Funeral Home was able to get her right in and handle her cremation for us. Yet, another prayer answered!
There was quite a void the next few days with lots of tears, because our constant was gone and it was hitting everyone pretty hard. Yes, she was a dog, but to us she was much more! We were so so sad, until Wednesday, when we got the call that she was ready for us to pick her up. What an instant feeling of relief! My heart felt so much better, because my girl was coming back home. Such a peaceful, calm feeling!
Katee, is back home now and she will be with us for the remainder of our days here, too! Dogs bring such joy to a home! They are your constant and we sure will miss her. Our girl may be gone in the physical, but we are getting signs that she is still with us in spirit and that has been so great! Yes, her spirit is still with us and for that we are truly grateful! Goodbye sweet girl! 🐾❤
Katee Bella Shroyer / Dec 9, 2005 - Feb 13, 2021
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