Not ready for this!!!! LOL

I can't even begin to tell you how "weird" I feel right now!!!  So much has happened within the past 4 days that I'm still trying to wrap my head around it all.....It started Monday at Colin's 3 year appointment and the news of needing to get him further tested. I got home that afternoon and started making phone calls to get the ball rolling, so Tuesday morning I was down at the PreK enrolling him.  UGH, I cried like a big ol'baby walking into the school, b/c I know this starts his schooling but yet, he's 3...he's supposed to be able to enjoy the next couple of years w/o it!!!  I was so bummed, but when I got into the school, it felt like a weight was lifted, b/c I came in contact with some pretty neat ladies that helped me with every question I had.  I'm not quite sure what we are faced with yet for Colin, but after that appointment, I truly feel we are doing the best for him.  So, this fall, he'll be in PreK 3 days a week!  Now, while I was there, the lady I was with noticed I had a 5 year old son (from the enrollment form) and that opened up conversation about Ethan.  I went into this thinking Ethan could go to a 5 year PreK, but I came out, knowing I needed to get him enrolled in Kindergarten!  I knew this time was coming, but I truly wasn't ready to send him.  I thought I'd get 1 more year with him to prepare, for more fun, and just to let him adapt a little more.  Well, no!!!  Ethan, is now going and will head there this fall, as well!  WOW, I was so upset about it.....lots of tears were shed!  You know, looking back I keep thinking of the day my life changed giving birth to Ethan and thinking that him going to school was "so far off" and now the time is here...Really???  I know time goes fast, but I truly didn't think this fast, it's like I blinked and his time for school, full-time kindergarten school, is here!!!  Then to think we need to send Colin now too, man the news is really hard to take.  I know we will adapt, figure out our new schedule, and hopefully enjoy the new change in our lives.....BUT, right now, I'm still trying to wrap my head around it all.  We've got Colin's appointments going for the summer, Ethan's paperwork complete, and started on the school supply list....slowly trying to ease into this!   ☺