Today, I write this post with a huge smile on my face. I have had such an overwhelming feeling since waking up, knowing that it was speech therapy day and even though I know it's going to be ok, I still get a knot in my throat about it. This is week #3 and each week my little man has improved. His whole demeanor about it is amazing to me and today, he went in without me...WITHOUT ME!!! Holy cow, I wasn't prepared for it, but I'll take it. =) He did so good and Miss Laura was so proud of him. I chuckled on the inside listening to him in the room with her, b/c he was doing it all by himself! That feeling is such a great one, only because it helps me know that this journey is going to be ok. I was so worried for so long that maybe he'll never learn, never say a word, but how that is just not the case and for that I'm blessed! Hearing his sweet, little voice brings tears of joy to my eyes every time. For the first 4 years of his life, I felt like I needed to protect him from the world and I was so afraid to trust. Anytime I ever let go of that feeling, thinking I could trust the "adult" in the situation I was let down. However, last year I knew I couldn't do it all. If he was going to be able to have a successful future, I needed to allow the professionals in and that's when my mood changed. Sending him to preschool was the 1st step, getting his IEP was the 2nd, and now speech therapy. It hasn't been a breeze, by no means, I've had to raise my voice a few times to be heard, but I sit here today knowing that as his mother he is moving mountains. He amazes me at the things he is conquering and hearing the encouraging words from his therapist, man does my heart good. I know he's not 100%, yet....but, being encouraged goes along way and I just love his therapist. I love that she is allowing him to do things his way, allowing him to breath, and most importantly not pushing him to a point of hating being there. I mean really, 3 weeks in and he's going by himself....WOW!!!! I sure enjoy watching him grow and this journey is getting much easier with each passing day/year, but doing things outside my comfort zone is proving that this little boy is the blessing that I needed in my life. He thinks I'm trying to teach him, but the reality is...he's teaching me!!!
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